Post by Michael on Jul 1, 2013 4:03:29 GMT -5
Feeling confused, sad, worthless
I have made some great friends from the YSA branch, 99% of them are guys the 1% is 1-2 two girls who I have talked to a little bit, and I don't think I can actually call them friends (the 2 girls)
the guy friends I made there are only like 5 of them
There's this girl that I like, we were in the same family ward before I moved last year then she went to college.
The last time I saw her was on New Years eve, she said I was looking great (weight wise) but she's going back to college at the end of August, my plans was to have my call in August, so she'll be here when I open it and then on the 3rd Sunday she could come out to my branch (3rd sundays we have dinner after church) and I was going to read my call then, but I don't think I'll be able to get my call by then.
3 weeks ago I was jogging 4.31 miles each day (give or take a couple of days out of the week, like Sundays) anyways and I did that for 2 weeks and lost nothing, meanwhile a friend of mine from the branch I was jogging with lost like 10 pounds (His not over weight, his like 6'6 and 200 something pounds, tall and skinny etc)
I can't go jogging now because I have been having problems with my feet.. I have flat feet and I need good support for my shoes, I'm waiting for the support stuff to come in the mail (this is 2nd week of waiting) I need to lose like 25-30 pounds before the first week in August or the plan I had in mine won't work.
I could of not lost the weight during those two weeks because I could have a thyroid problem, (I was taking some meds for that a couple years ago) but then this Dr wanted to test me without them and he never tested me, I never took them since.
My mom said this could be the problem
sigh it just feels like I will never get out on my mission.
Me and this girl I like, we have been texting on Sundays a couple of weeks and I told her that sometime in July we should go on a date or something
(I was thinking at the time by then I could of lost 15-20+ pounds)
Well guess what, it's July now and I don't want to see her yet.
I do... I really do because I like her but I will feel like I would failed if I see her sometime this month.. but she's leaving at the end of next month which is August and my plans and and... omgosh.. I don't know.
She's a great... amazing friend, she knows I have Asperger's Syndrome
Sometime in 2012 I was talking to her that I hope AS won't get in the way for my mission and that I'll be able to go, she said this
"no matter where you go, you'll influence people. Not only do you have a great personality, but your testimony is one of the strongest I have seen anywhere"
then I said really? and she said
"honest to goodness. You are a great guy, Michael, and I'm grateful that I have a friend in you. I might not talk much, but I do consider you as probably one of the best examples in my life"
I want to see her this month, go on a date or hang out but a part of me don't want to see her until I'm done with losing the weight.. I don't know what to do.
Plus it's way easier to talk to her by texting.. as I suck with being social (I have gotten better with the friends from the branch, but theres all guys)
When I told her about the results from the Five-hour-evaluation she was just like "See Michael, you're as smart as anyone I know "
Even though I do not agree 100% with that, she's just an amazing friend and I like her a lot.
and I don't know what to do.. please any help?
I have made some great friends from the YSA branch, 99% of them are guys the 1% is 1-2 two girls who I have talked to a little bit, and I don't think I can actually call them friends (the 2 girls)
the guy friends I made there are only like 5 of them
There's this girl that I like, we were in the same family ward before I moved last year then she went to college.
The last time I saw her was on New Years eve, she said I was looking great (weight wise) but she's going back to college at the end of August, my plans was to have my call in August, so she'll be here when I open it and then on the 3rd Sunday she could come out to my branch (3rd sundays we have dinner after church) and I was going to read my call then, but I don't think I'll be able to get my call by then.
3 weeks ago I was jogging 4.31 miles each day (give or take a couple of days out of the week, like Sundays) anyways and I did that for 2 weeks and lost nothing, meanwhile a friend of mine from the branch I was jogging with lost like 10 pounds (His not over weight, his like 6'6 and 200 something pounds, tall and skinny etc)
I can't go jogging now because I have been having problems with my feet.. I have flat feet and I need good support for my shoes, I'm waiting for the support stuff to come in the mail (this is 2nd week of waiting) I need to lose like 25-30 pounds before the first week in August or the plan I had in mine won't work.
I could of not lost the weight during those two weeks because I could have a thyroid problem, (I was taking some meds for that a couple years ago) but then this Dr wanted to test me without them and he never tested me, I never took them since.
My mom said this could be the problem
sigh it just feels like I will never get out on my mission.
Me and this girl I like, we have been texting on Sundays a couple of weeks and I told her that sometime in July we should go on a date or something
(I was thinking at the time by then I could of lost 15-20+ pounds)
Well guess what, it's July now and I don't want to see her yet.
I do... I really do because I like her but I will feel like I would failed if I see her sometime this month.. but she's leaving at the end of next month which is August and my plans and and... omgosh.. I don't know.
She's a great... amazing friend, she knows I have Asperger's Syndrome
Sometime in 2012 I was talking to her that I hope AS won't get in the way for my mission and that I'll be able to go, she said this
"no matter where you go, you'll influence people. Not only do you have a great personality, but your testimony is one of the strongest I have seen anywhere"
then I said really? and she said
"honest to goodness. You are a great guy, Michael, and I'm grateful that I have a friend in you. I might not talk much, but I do consider you as probably one of the best examples in my life"
I want to see her this month, go on a date or hang out but a part of me don't want to see her until I'm done with losing the weight.. I don't know what to do.
Plus it's way easier to talk to her by texting.. as I suck with being social (I have gotten better with the friends from the branch, but theres all guys)
When I told her about the results from the Five-hour-evaluation she was just like "See Michael, you're as smart as anyone I know "
Even though I do not agree 100% with that, she's just an amazing friend and I like her a lot.
and I don't know what to do.. please any help?