Post by Michael on Jan 31, 2010 21:14:27 GMT -5
Hey.. well heres my thing.
I got Asperger Syndrome. it's a Disorder or Disbility anyways..
people whot got it act werid.. say stuff what little kids would say becuse they don't know better, in my case I don't do that.. but I do touch my face with my hands A LOT when I'm very nervous or meeting people when we talk then I move my hand onto my face etc like that. Or in my case too.. When I say a prayer in sunday school or just talk to people I move my hand around my face.. like covering it......
Another thing is.. making eye conact when I was little I HATE looking at eyes even my own. Now I can look at mine and look into other eyes. but sometimes with people I never met befoe I can't look into their eyes.. I just can't.
Another thing. When I was little when I played with toy cars I lined them up that how I played with them. that's a sign of Asperger Syndrome. there's many kinds of it.
No woundr ppl my age at my ward, danes etc senses/tell that I'm different. therefore they don't talk to me that much, some do talk to me.. some are getting better but still..
I feel sush like a freak.... why did God had to give this to me?. (Yeah.. I know many others got worse stuff) But like.. Aubrey.. a girl from efy we talked, smiled, laughed etc at efy.. before she knew I was "different", that's probly why all the times I invited her to things she come up with something like "Sorry, my family is coming over for dinner, I asked but it wont work out"
How do I tell if she's lying or telling the truth?. If she's lying wasn't the frist someone lied to me, my whole life been a lie from "Friends"
I even called a guy on the phone 2 years ago.. asking if we can hang out.. I heard him talking to his mother saying "I don't want to hang out with him, I don't like him", probly cuz he came to my house once and could tell I was "differnt" I can tell now that his trying to change and talk to me etc.. we talked for the last 2 days at the stake dance and today in church. But how can that change for me?.. hearing that over the phone?, I was about to end the call.. I don't "Guess" the kids in my sunday school class talk behide my back, cuz I know they do.
It just makes sense now.... I just want more friends.. not just one who's 17 and the rest are in their 20's and got a wife.
Paul, his a awesome friend.. the really first friend I got. his 25. we meant when I was 14-15. He talked to me etc and said "Michael, most kids your age won't understand you now.. but they will and for thoes who didn't got to meet you, they will feel sorry". Maybe he could tell I had Asperger Syndrome.
I just know that I hate it.. I want friends my age. as I said.. the guy on the phone is trying.. and I'm kinda trying to be his friend.. but after what I heard over the phone.. it's hard.
EIDT>>
Hey, well last night I talked to my mom like a hour talking about Asperger Syndrome. She talked to me twice before about it but both times it went pass my head. About Ky.. well he lived in Utah away from farmers, ppl who love sports and only talk about it etc, so in Utah he fit in just right.. when he moved here we talked and later on he thought I was the "freak" that didn't fit in.. but once he hung around the other guys he began to know that he was the freak. the guys mad fun of him a lot for singing, not liking to camp, painballing, sports. Ky thought I was different from the guys here... which is true.. but they didn't talk about me when i was right in front of me. Ky on the other hand they did and my mom said he had a change of heart about me.. so that why he been talking to me etc.
ppl who have AS kinda have obession A LOT, not saying you guys don't like writing, singing, working out etc. but kids with Asperger Syndrome they... talk about them FOREVER!... Just ask my brother about efy xD!!. Mine obessions are... Going on a mission, Some elders who came/are at my ward, WW2, German and Germany, History. o and when a meet a girl and she says I can hang around her and her friends.. I would talk about her for ever!, just ask my brother... but I ask myself.. Why?
I now undertand why haven't awhile the girls slowly stop talking to me etc.. it's becuse they can tell that I'm different.. it make senses now.. why so many girls went away from me and I think Aubrey is going to be one very soon.. I want to msg all my friends from efy on fb and tell them about me.. so they would understand why I acted thoes ways.
I want to tell the kids in my sunday school class about it too... so they will undertsand why I acted thoes ways in my life growing up and still do. moving my hands onto my face after I said something to ppl is a BIG thing that happens all the time.
My mom said if I go to efy again like next year. when I'm telling them about myself in the group. to tell them about AS.. so they will know ahead of time if I act werid or not make eye contac it's not cuz I don't like them etc.
I prayed to God last night about Asperger Syndrome... and well I told him even with it I love my life.. at frist I didn't.. but I know now that it's my life and no one else can own it. .. we talked for awhile too. well I did.. not sure if he reply
I got Asperger Syndrome. it's a Disorder or Disbility anyways..
people whot got it act werid.. say stuff what little kids would say becuse they don't know better, in my case I don't do that.. but I do touch my face with my hands A LOT when I'm very nervous or meeting people when we talk then I move my hand onto my face etc like that. Or in my case too.. When I say a prayer in sunday school or just talk to people I move my hand around my face.. like covering it......
Another thing is.. making eye conact when I was little I HATE looking at eyes even my own. Now I can look at mine and look into other eyes. but sometimes with people I never met befoe I can't look into their eyes.. I just can't.
Another thing. When I was little when I played with toy cars I lined them up that how I played with them. that's a sign of Asperger Syndrome. there's many kinds of it.
No woundr ppl my age at my ward, danes etc senses/tell that I'm different. therefore they don't talk to me that much, some do talk to me.. some are getting better but still..
I feel sush like a freak.... why did God had to give this to me?. (Yeah.. I know many others got worse stuff) But like.. Aubrey.. a girl from efy we talked, smiled, laughed etc at efy.. before she knew I was "different", that's probly why all the times I invited her to things she come up with something like "Sorry, my family is coming over for dinner, I asked but it wont work out"
How do I tell if she's lying or telling the truth?. If she's lying wasn't the frist someone lied to me, my whole life been a lie from "Friends"
I even called a guy on the phone 2 years ago.. asking if we can hang out.. I heard him talking to his mother saying "I don't want to hang out with him, I don't like him", probly cuz he came to my house once and could tell I was "differnt" I can tell now that his trying to change and talk to me etc.. we talked for the last 2 days at the stake dance and today in church. But how can that change for me?.. hearing that over the phone?, I was about to end the call.. I don't "Guess" the kids in my sunday school class talk behide my back, cuz I know they do.
It just makes sense now.... I just want more friends.. not just one who's 17 and the rest are in their 20's and got a wife.
Paul, his a awesome friend.. the really first friend I got. his 25. we meant when I was 14-15. He talked to me etc and said "Michael, most kids your age won't understand you now.. but they will and for thoes who didn't got to meet you, they will feel sorry". Maybe he could tell I had Asperger Syndrome.
I just know that I hate it.. I want friends my age. as I said.. the guy on the phone is trying.. and I'm kinda trying to be his friend.. but after what I heard over the phone.. it's hard.
EIDT>>
Hey, well last night I talked to my mom like a hour talking about Asperger Syndrome. She talked to me twice before about it but both times it went pass my head. About Ky.. well he lived in Utah away from farmers, ppl who love sports and only talk about it etc, so in Utah he fit in just right.. when he moved here we talked and later on he thought I was the "freak" that didn't fit in.. but once he hung around the other guys he began to know that he was the freak. the guys mad fun of him a lot for singing, not liking to camp, painballing, sports. Ky thought I was different from the guys here... which is true.. but they didn't talk about me when i was right in front of me. Ky on the other hand they did and my mom said he had a change of heart about me.. so that why he been talking to me etc.
ppl who have AS kinda have obession A LOT, not saying you guys don't like writing, singing, working out etc. but kids with Asperger Syndrome they... talk about them FOREVER!... Just ask my brother about efy xD!!. Mine obessions are... Going on a mission, Some elders who came/are at my ward, WW2, German and Germany, History. o and when a meet a girl and she says I can hang around her and her friends.. I would talk about her for ever!, just ask my brother... but I ask myself.. Why?
I now undertand why haven't awhile the girls slowly stop talking to me etc.. it's becuse they can tell that I'm different.. it make senses now.. why so many girls went away from me and I think Aubrey is going to be one very soon.. I want to msg all my friends from efy on fb and tell them about me.. so they would understand why I acted thoes ways.
I want to tell the kids in my sunday school class about it too... so they will undertsand why I acted thoes ways in my life growing up and still do. moving my hands onto my face after I said something to ppl is a BIG thing that happens all the time.
My mom said if I go to efy again like next year. when I'm telling them about myself in the group. to tell them about AS.. so they will know ahead of time if I act werid or not make eye contac it's not cuz I don't like them etc.
I prayed to God last night about Asperger Syndrome... and well I told him even with it I love my life.. at frist I didn't.. but I know now that it's my life and no one else can own it. .. we talked for awhile too. well I did.. not sure if he reply