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Post by tinytim09 on Jul 8, 2008 13:29:39 GMT -5
ok...so i feel like i let people down when i make a bad choice but at the same time its kinda like a release...to get all the stuff ive pushed down inside of me to get free for a lil while. i recently got back from my last youth conference of my life and the following saturday my stake was having a stake temple trip....my mom and my bishop asked if i was going...i didnt want to tell the bishop anything so i told him that since my mom was going i would have to babysit.....and then when m mom asked if i was going i had to look her in the eye and tell her that i COULDNT ...that hurt pretty bad but there was no way i was worthy to walk through those doors. on top of that i had a friend that went to the temple that should not have .....no way she was worthy either...yet she had to have lied to the bishop to get the recommend...and then when she got home afterwards with another girl that went to the temple...they both did stuff that ...well inappropriate and wrong. im not innocent but i know the temple is a sacred place it bugs me to see it treated like its not b others.....
i guess im just writing this to say i know what ive done wrong....but i dont regret a lot of it and im sure ill do it again so honestl why repent now and have to kill myself over it later on again. when i actually feel the spirit its so powerful that it overcomes me.....but most of the time i just dont have that. ...im suppose im just stuck in the middle and dont know what to do.
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jul 8, 2008 17:27:37 GMT -5
wooooooooow. i'm really proud of you and admire you. you actually....knew how important the Lord's house is. we should always strive to be allowed to be in his house. and don't beat yourself up to much that you cant right now. the only peson to ever walk a perfect like is christ. we all sin to learn and repent. and trust me. i know the feeling of....not wanting to stop and change. but you really should. pray to want to. you already did the first step of repentence and recognized what you did was wrong.
im not really helpful
im sure jenni will have more to say. and be more helpful. im still struggling on my testimony. and i cant help when i need help.
jenni help her please.
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jul 8, 2008 23:11:15 GMT -5
wooooooooow. i'm really proud of you and admire you. you actually....knew how important the Lord's house is. we should always strive to be allowed to be in his house. and don't beat yourself up to much that you cant right now. the only peson to ever walk a perfect like is christ. we all sin to learn and repent. and trust me. i know the feeling of....not wanting to stop and change. but you really should. pray to want to. you already did the first step of repentence and recognized what you did was wrong. im not really helpful im sure jenni will have more to say. and be more helpful. im still struggling on my testimony. and i cant help when i need help. jenni help her please. Alyse you are far more helpful than you give yourself credit for! It is too late tonight, but tomorrow after work I'll post my thoughts on this. Take care Ladies!
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Post by sakura on Jul 9, 2008 3:35:14 GMT -5
On the contrary tinytim you made the right choice.I know it's not easy to 'let people down' but if you feel you aren't worthy then you shouldn't go.The Lord understands and that is way more important than other people's approval.You are his child and he wants to see you but he wants you to understand the importance of repentance as well.Maybe if you discussed that with your mom or the bishop then you wouldn't feel so bad.just explain yuou want to be worthy and not enter the Lords house having lied to get in there.
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jul 11, 2008 0:46:55 GMT -5
I'm in agreement with Rachel, Alyse and Erin. The Temple is a very special sacred place! I would go there to make covenants with the Lord.........but if you go there knowing that you are going to go right out and break these covenants........then you are better off not going until you truly want to follow a more Christ like example.
I know that we are all different....in the way we see things and in the choices that we make. I would try and not get too caught up in the superficial pleasures of this present mortal existence and lose sight of the real purpose of why we are here on Earth at the present time with our mortal bodies!
I have found great comfort in staying in touch with the Lord through daily prayer and I would encourage everyone to seek his advice and comfort as much as possible!
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Post by hockeydude on Jul 12, 2008 19:01:58 GMT -5
There is only one man who's lived a clear and perfect life, and that is our Savior. Everyone will falter in this life, and so you shouldn't be ashamed of the fact that you've fallen one or more times. It's happened to you, it's happened to me, it's happened to the General Authorities, it's happened to the Prophet.
If you do not feel worthy to enter the temple, I respect your decision to hold it sacred to you and not enter. But what I feel is that you are weighing down your mistakes too heavily on yourself, and I would've talked to your bishop to help you realize that. He may have said you would be just fine.
It's easy to give up and say," I'll do it again." But what if you could flip your situation around and swear never to do it again. Imagine the blessings. Christ didn't give us his word to weigh us down, and if you fight strong enough to obey his word, he'll open up his gift of happiness to you. Think of the people around you who live his word, and more than likely you'll find this is true.
I've been in your shoes and I've turned around. Fighting your mistakes is worth it, take it from me. You've got my support.
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