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Post by .:Amanda:. on Jun 15, 2008 19:49:40 GMT -5
Sorry for the morbidness of this song, but it was written in a pretty tough time in my life when I felt like I was being mistreated by everyone around me. This was the only way I could get it out. So I just wanted to see what you guys think of it. Here it goes...
It's getting harder every day To force that smile and act okay This mask I wear is fading away And I'm starting to cave in.
Don't know how much longer I can pretend Used to be so much stronger, but I'm reaching my end.
Because I am not the rock that they see. Inside my heart is beginning to bleed. They push and they pull, but they don't see, The hurt and the pain, inside of me. But I'll paint on that smile, and face another day, As my self confidence, Withers away.
If they really looked in my eyes They'd see the pain and hurt I've diguised But they all go on with their lives So why, why can't I? Push past the pain And start to regain Some self esteem, Some meaning.
Don't know how much longer I can pretend Used to be so much stronger, but I'm reaching my end.
Because I am not the rock that they see. Inside my heart is beginning to bleed. They push and they pull, but they don't see, The hurt and the pain, inside of me. But I'll paint on that smile, and face another day, As my self confidence, Withers away.
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jun 24, 2008 0:06:30 GMT -5
Sorry for the morbidness of this song, but it was written in a pretty tough time in my life when I felt like I was being mistreated by everyone around me. This was the only way I could get it out. So I just wanted to see what you guys think of it. Here it goes... I liked your poem! It's getting harder every day To force that smile and act okay This mask I wear is fading away And I'm starting to cave in. Don't know how much longer I can pretend Used to be so much stronger, but I'm reaching my end. Because I am not the rock that they see. Inside my heart is beginning to bleed. They push and they pull, but they don't see, The hurt and the pain, inside of me. But I'll paint on that smile, and face another day, As my self confidence, Withers away. If they really looked in my eyes They'd see the pain and hurt I've diguised But they all go on with their lives So why, why can't I? Push past the pain And start to regain Some self esteem, Some meaning. Don't know how much longer I can pretend Used to be so much stronger, but I'm reaching my end. Because I am not the rock that they see. Inside my heart is beginning to bleed. They push and they pull, but they don't see, The hurt and the pain, inside of me. But I'll paint on that smile, and face another day, As my self confidence, Withers away.
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Post by sakura on Jun 24, 2008 3:37:17 GMT -5
Song twinny song!But never mind dear Very nice.You expressed yourself very well
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Post by .:Amanda:. on Jun 24, 2008 11:37:55 GMT -5
Song twinny song!But never mind dear Very nice.You expressed yourself very well i dont get the twinny thing, but thanks
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jun 24, 2008 22:23:53 GMT -5
Song twinny song!But never mind dear Very nice.You expressed yourself very well i dont get the twinny thing, but thanks I can explain it! Sakura (Erin) is my internet twin.........and I called your song a poem, but it's really kind of both a song and a poem, but I should have said "song". Lessee (Alyse) ....another member on here ......has expressed similar feelings in her writings when life has delivered a low blow, but now she is on an upward roll!! She has her learners permit, just had her awesome sweet 16 birthday! , and will soon be going on dates! I'm so happy for her! I hope things have improved in your life too! Just remember that you are a daughter of our Heavenly Father and he wants the best for you!
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Post by .:Amanda:. on Jun 24, 2008 23:11:26 GMT -5
i dont get the twinny thing, but thanks I can explain it! Sakura (Erin) is my internet twin.........and I called your song a poem, but it's really kind of both a song and a poem, but I should have said "song". Lessee (Alyse) ....another member on here ......has expressed similar feelings in her writings when life has delivered a low blow, but now she is on an upward roll!! She has her learners permit, just had her awesome sweet 16 birthday! , and will soon be going on dates! I'm so happy for her! I hope things have improved in your life too! Just remember that you are a daughter of our Heavenly Father and he wants the best for you! oooooooohhhhhhhhhh i get it!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you. that would've taxed my mind for the rest of my natural born life Anyway, yeah things have gotten way better thanks. And song or poem, it doesn't really matter to me what you call it.
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jun 24, 2008 23:38:32 GMT -5
I can explain it! Sakura (Erin) is my internet twin.........and I called your song a poem, but it's really kind of both a song and a poem, but I should have said "song". Lessee (Alyse) ....another member on here ......has expressed similar feelings in her writings when life has delivered a low blow, but now she is on an upward roll!! She has her learners permit, just had her awesome sweet 16 birthday! , and will soon be going on dates! I'm so happy for her! I hope things have improved in your life too! Just remember that you are a daughter of our Heavenly Father and he wants the best for you! oooooooohhhhhhhhhh i get it!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you. that would've taxed my mind for the rest of my natural born life Anyway, yeah things have gotten way better thanks. And song or poem, it doesn't really matter to me what you call it. Super! I'm happy that things are better now for you too!
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Post by sakura on Jun 25, 2008 2:44:49 GMT -5
;D thanks for explaining Jenni.I'm sorry it's a habit calling her twinny
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jun 26, 2008 0:07:15 GMT -5
;D thanks for explaining Jenni.I'm sorry it's a habit calling her twinny haha.......and it makes me feel special! ;D
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jul 8, 2008 14:29:47 GMT -5
wow. i cant believe i'm just now reading this thread. im an awful advisor on here. those lyrics....were so powerful to me in so many ways. you really have a gift. jenni is right. i do understand what u are saying. more then you think i do. i love your chorus. its probably what stuck me the hardest. thanks so much for that jenni. my life is getting better. but its still a challenge every day. but i am now so much happier. i know its not easy this is for everyone..... life isn't easy. and it bring me comfert knowing that everyone on the earth today. is ment to be. that they have a purpose. that christ waited to send them. that everything just always seems to fall into perfect place. that everything really does work out. and happens for a reason. when your life is dark and scary and lonly. dont give up. i know that is just so simple to say and hard to apply. but i know what got me through is knowing god had faith in me. and that he loves me and hears me. that i really am his child. and that he didn't want to let me go.
i was at a fire side awhile ago. and something they said just hit me. they said that when we were in heaven we kept bugging the Lord. we kept asking him how we could become like him. and at first he wouldn't allow us to do it. and he told us that we would have to leave him to become like him. that he wouldn't be able to hold us anymore. they he wouldnt be able to talk to us directly anymore. and that our hearts would fail us and that we wouldn't be as happy as we were then. he told us that if we were to become like him that we would first become unperfect to become perfect. that we had to learn on our own how to stand alone. but he promised that if we really wanted to be like him that we wouldn't ever be alone. he would always help us because he still loved us. in all our unperfectness. because we were his child. and he asked if we still wanted to leave him. and we told him yes. that we would go through that to be like him. because the prise at the end is worth fighting for. i cant world the whole thing like they did. but it was so powerful. and it really made me think of why i came here.
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Post by sakura on Jul 9, 2008 3:30:16 GMT -5
I agree Alyse.You have gotten much better thorugh trying and it is an excellent song too.
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Post by .:Amanda:. on Jul 9, 2008 14:15:17 GMT -5
wow. i cant believe i'm just now reading this thread. im an awful advisor on here. those lyrics....were so powerful to me in so many ways. you really have a gift. jenni is right. i do understand what u are saying. more then you think i do. i love your chorus. its probably what stuck me the hardest. thanks so much for that jenni. my life is getting better. but its still a challenge every day. but i am now so much happier. i know its not easy this is for everyone..... life isn't easy. and it bring me comfert knowing that everyone on the earth today. is ment to be. that they have a purpose. that christ waited to send them. that everything just always seems to fall into perfect place. that everything really does work out. and happens for a reason. when your life is dark and scary and lonly. dont give up. i know that is just so simple to say and hard to apply. but i know what got me through is knowing god had faith in me. and that he loves me and hears me. that i really am his child. and that he didn't want to let me go. i was at a fire side awhile ago. and something they said just hit me. they said that when we were in heaven we kept bugging the Lord. we kept asking him how we could become like him. and at first he wouldn't allow us to do it. and he told us that we would have to leave him to become like him. that he wouldn't be able to hold us anymore. they he wouldnt be able to talk to us directly anymore. and that our hearts would fail us and that we wouldn't be as happy as we were then. he told us that if we were to become like him that we would first become unperfect to become perfect. that we had to learn on our own how to stand alone. but he promised that if we really wanted to be like him that we wouldn't ever be alone. he would always help us because he still loved us. in all our unperfectness. because we were his child. and he asked if we still wanted to leave him. and we told him yes. that we would go through that to be like him. because the prise at the end is worth fighting for. i cant world the whole thing like they did. but it was so powerful. and it really made me think of why i came here. wow. that was deep. thanks i really needed it. and im glad im not the only one who has felt like that before. writing this song made me realize that trials do have a purpose and that something good will always come from the bad. glad you all liked it!
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jul 11, 2008 0:10:34 GMT -5
wow. i cant believe i'm just now reading this thread. im an awful advisor on here. those lyrics....were so powerful to me in so many ways. you really have a gift. jenni is right. i do understand what u are saying. more then you think i do. i love your chorus. its probably what stuck me the hardest. thanks so much for that jenni. my life is getting better. but its still a challenge every day. but i am now so much happier. i know its not easy this is for everyone..... life isn't easy. and it bring me comfert knowing that everyone on the earth today. is ment to be. that they have a purpose. that christ waited to send them. that everything just always seems to fall into perfect place. that everything really does work out. and happens for a reason. when your life is dark and scary and lonly. dont give up. i know that is just so simple to say and hard to apply. but i know what got me through is knowing god had faith in me. and that he loves me and hears me. that i really am his child. and that he didn't want to let me go. i was at a fire side awhile ago. and something they said just hit me. they said that when we were in heaven we kept bugging the Lord. we kept asking him how we could become like him. and at first he wouldn't allow us to do it. and he told us that we would have to leave him to become like him. that he wouldn't be able to hold us anymore. they he wouldnt be able to talk to us directly anymore. and that our hearts would fail us and that we wouldn't be as happy as we were then. he told us that if we were to become like him that we would first become unperfect to become perfect. that we had to learn on our own how to stand alone. but he promised that if we really wanted to be like him that we wouldn't ever be alone. he would always help us because he still loved us. in all our unperfectness. because we were his child. and he asked if we still wanted to leave him. and we told him yes. that we would go through that to be like him. because the prise at the end is worth fighting for. i cant world the whole thing like they did. but it was so powerful. and it really made me think of why i came here. wow. that was deep. thanks i really needed it. and im glad im not the only one who has felt like that before. writing this song made me realize that trials do have a purpose and that something good will always come from the bad. glad you all liked it! You're very welcome! I like your fireside story too Alyse!
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jul 14, 2008 12:37:54 GMT -5
thanks jenni.
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jul 14, 2008 13:23:57 GMT -5
thanks jenni. You're very welcome Alyse! It's this sharing of little gems of wisdom from our friends that helps to strength our resolve and prepare us for what lies ahead!
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