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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jan 1, 2008 22:44:56 GMT -5
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 1, 2008 22:50:05 GMT -5
they had some weird name ... lol
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jan 1, 2008 23:18:50 GMT -5
they had some weird name ... lol My post above was referring to being a friend.........when you and Erin were asking if Alyse was your only friend! ;D
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Post by sakura on Jan 2, 2008 5:08:57 GMT -5
Yay!We got another friend! ;D
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 2, 2008 16:53:00 GMT -5
they had some weird name ... lol My post above was referring to being a friend.........when you and Erin were asking if Alyse was your only friend! ;D ya i know ... lol
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Post by Admin on Jan 2, 2008 18:36:15 GMT -5
lol... WOW that got off subject quickly!!!
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 2, 2008 19:29:18 GMT -5
we do our best hehe
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Post by sakura on Jan 3, 2008 8:08:49 GMT -5
Surely this wasn't our best?!...well it's the best we can do when it's not in the off-topic board oops hehehe
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 3, 2008 17:18:26 GMT -5
so ya about those moments of weakness...
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Post by Sherlock on Jan 3, 2008 21:31:00 GMT -5
what moments of weakness? lol
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 3, 2008 22:17:03 GMT -5
you know those moments of weakness ... lol
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jan 3, 2008 23:14:26 GMT -5
i've got one for you. my moment of weakness tonight i had to cut my birds wings and wasn't paying enough attention and i cut to close to the vein... and ive got to go... check on it. finish the story later....
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 3, 2008 23:19:32 GMT -5
I have alot of weakness right now ... and one of those being getting stressed really quickly and easily
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jan 4, 2008 20:45:49 GMT -5
i've got one for you. my moment of weakness tonight i had to cut my birds wings and wasn't paying enough attention and i cut to close to the vein... and ive got to go... check on it. finish the story later.... Now I'm stressed over the fate of the bird!
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jan 5, 2008 0:20:15 GMT -5
i've got one for you. my moment of weakness tonight i had to cut my birds wings and wasn't paying enough attention and i cut to close to the vein... and ive got to go... check on it. finish the story later.... Now I'm stressed over the fate of the bird! haha so i was cutting its wings. and i cut into the wein and it started bleeding real bad and i was freaking out i didnt know what to do so i took it and decided it was time for a bath cause its normally blue but lst night it was red and so i put it in the sink and i was talking to my friend on msn and was telling her about it she was all like DONT DO THAT you'll open the wound so i wrapped it in a towl and held it and it was skaing realy bad and it closed its eyes and then stopped shaking i was freaking out i was like SKY!!!!! and my mom came home and in my house i make enough mistakes and she couldnt know about it so i put it back in the cage and checked on it every 3 seconds i woke up this morning and it is OK!!!!! but all day at school i heard BIRD KILLER!!! so ya.
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Post by sakura on Jan 5, 2008 6:26:20 GMT -5
Lol.Just teaches you to be careful Alyse.
Oh no look the bird is turning green!Lol jk jk You know I wouldn't do that to you. ;D
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Post by Sherlock on Jan 5, 2008 15:21:34 GMT -5
Now I'm stressed over the fate of the bird! haha so i was cutting its wings. and i cut into the wein and it started bleeding real bad and i was freaking out i didnt know what to do so i took it and decided it was time for a bath cause its normally blue but lst night it was red and so i put it in the sink and i was talking to my friend on msn and was telling her about it she was all like DONT DO THAT you'll open the wound so i wrapped it in a towl and held it and it was skaing realy bad and it closed its eyes and then stopped shaking i was freaking out i was like SKY!!!!! and my mom came home and in my house i make enough mistakes and she couldnt know about it so i put it back in the cage and checked on it every 3 seconds i woke up this morning and it is OK!!!!! but all day at school i heard BIRD KILLER!!! so ya. wow.... BIRD KILLER!!!! lol j/k
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 5, 2008 16:31:08 GMT -5
poor birdie good thing its ok
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jan 24, 2008 14:56:28 GMT -5
please dont judge me on this. ive just.. got to let this out. i couldn't go to school today because i was so scared i would break down crying... i feel like ive crashed and burned that the world has finally turned its back on me. i try so hard to smile through my tears. because i love the lord so much. but i just feel so alone. i cant remember the last time where being happy was effertless. my mom hates me. argue me on it all you want its true. my best friend just got her heart broken and i spend every moment of every day worrying about her my brother left yesterday and i dont feel anything im not sad at all. i have to many friends who hate me. i cant decide what i want in life if i want to do drill or oakcrest. and somtimes... i dont want to live i can feel pain in my chest all the time. and the urge to break down. i try so sticken hard to stop my habbit!!! and everything is just getting worse. im seriously pushed to my limit. im about to snap. lord, please. where are you when i need you?
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Post by hockeydude on Jan 24, 2008 23:32:56 GMT -5
Sometimes the best thing you can do during these types of times is to type and let it all out, like you just did. You have my sympathy in this situation. I don't know your mom, so I won't argue with you, but I am almost certain that she doesn't hate you. She may seem too strict or like she doesn't care, I don't know and I won't go there, but I'm sure that she loves you from every corner of her heart. Maybe since you're hiding behind the tears, she doesn't know that you need emphasized love at this time. That's good that you're being strong for your friend, it really strengthens the phrase,"for good, and bad times. I'll be on your side forever more.," in the song "That's What Friends Are For." But try to help her see the bright sides of things. Happiness is contagious. Once someone is infected, you're in trouble. I've had the same problem, not deciding what to do. It bothered me, it really did. Then, one day, I had a thought. Take all your options into perspective, and say," These are all the things I am ABLE to do." You're not restricted to the bare minimum like so many others are, and you can see that as a blessing! Whichever way you turn will be a turn for the better! I know it's hard (and I'm sorry for babbling on ), but either Satan is burdening you with these thoughts, or the Lord has decided to test your faith in difficult times. Remembering Him and his love, I'd say you're doing very well. Hang in there, Lesse.
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Post by ldsgirl Aka Sayari on Jan 25, 2008 0:53:17 GMT -5
lord, please. where are you when i need you? My dearest sister Alyse.......I copied the above last line from your previous post. In answer to your question: I would say that our Heavenly Father is watching over us. I truly believe that he wants the best for us! Just think of the sacrifice that he made by allowing his son to die on the cross for all of the sins of the world! In the pre-mortal world, we didn't have the temptations and the stress that come with having a physical, body that here on Earth can bring. If you remember Satan had a plan too, but in his plan .........we would all be forced to act and do things a certain way. There would be no free agency! Our Heavenly Father on the other hand........rejected Satan's plan. For he wanted us to grow and develop. So to accomplish this ..........we were sent to Earth so that we could experience both pain and pleasure and the stresses that comes with it! He didn't just abandon us though........to drift and flounder in a vast sea of corruption, but instead he has provided us with an example to follow .....his son, "Jesus Christ". We should try to follow Christ's example each day. I think that when we read our scriptures and say our prayers on a daily bases .....we will be more inclined to use our free agency in a positive way that expresses love, kindness and wholesome goodness to others and less of the evil and greedy selfishness that others without direction in their lives, might choose. Now here is another important point to remember: We are not perfect! We all can and do make mistakes from time to time! But we have an awesome person in our corner! Jesus Christ, who loves us so much that he took on all of the sins of the world and died on the cross for us......so that we might have eternal life. All we need to do is repent with real intent when we do wrong and try harder to follow Jesus's example in the future. Just remember that you are never alone........you can always call on God.......day or night, rain or shine .....for strength and comfort in dealing with your problems! You don't even need a cell phone, because his ear is always listening for your prayer! May God Bless! Jenni
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Post by sakura on Jan 25, 2008 7:56:43 GMT -5
Unfortunatly I don't have much time but I agree with all that Jenni has said.He is always there for you Alyse.You just need to ask,to call him.
Have faith my friend!Sometimes the best good comes out of the worst bad.
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 25, 2008 10:54:51 GMT -5
Alyse I have been gone through alot of the same thing .. and like Erin I dont have much time ... so I just want to tell dont loose faith he is there and he does care for you!!
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jan 26, 2008 11:57:35 GMT -5
its not that i don't have time to type. its just i don't know what to say right now. i really appreaciate what you guys are doing. and ive seriously read all your replys about a dozen times by now. its just. i really am lost right now and i don't know what to do. so i relly dont know what to say to you guys right now. im really sorry
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Post by sakura on Jan 26, 2008 12:47:41 GMT -5
Tell us how you feel.If you want you can share with us the problem.Just cry on our shoulders you know.If you have enough eyes lol.
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 26, 2008 16:10:46 GMT -5
and if you dont want to say it on this thread feel free to PM us im sure we are all here and willing to help with anything ... chances is one of us has gone through what ever it is that you are
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jan 26, 2008 16:16:14 GMT -5
this is what i wrote jenni.
Quote:Alyse,
I was a little worried after reading your post. I really care about you and I want the best for you! If you want someone to listen, or listen and offer advice or just a hug.......then please let me know and I'll try and help out. Love always! Jenni
thanks jenni. its so nice to know that someone cares. its just. right now, i had to do the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. and that was to confess something to my bishop. and i'm doing everything the lord asks of me. and my life is only getting worse. i thought things got better if you did what the lord asked? i feel ignored and alone. like the world really has turned its back on me. im patient with my mom. who hates me and all she does is snap at me. i don't think she loves me. she doesn't want me to be happy. she hates my dancing. she never watches me do it. and she is so negative tords it. she says im fat and needs to lose weight. and after everything, im still patient with her. im litterally driving myself absolutely insane. trying to decide between oakcrest and drill. i feel like all my friends hate me for different reasons...and nothing will work no matter how hard i try. my best friend just got her heart torn out by a boy who for 3 monthes told her how much he loved and adored her...and out of no where find someone new and like....agh....and im just worried about her. its all ive been thinking about. then my brother just left for the mtc. i wont see him for 2 years, and i didn't feel anything. i feel like this awful person cause i wasn't sad. i just...right in the middle of my chest...i have this pain that tares a new hole in my heart for every tear i drop. and it wont go away no matter how much i pled to god for help. im just one person. and im forgetten. there are soo many people in the world... im not worth anyones time. not even the lords..
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Post by sakura on Jan 27, 2008 11:24:32 GMT -5
Oh alyse!Don't think that!Never ever ever I forbid it!! We all love you so much and the Lord does too!But since your acting like he doesn't and he's really trying to help do you think you notice? If you feel it's that bad talk to your mom.Nothing is going to get better just by keeping it in!Another thing,people who dance excercise too!Dancing is great excercise and a healthy outlet for your stres.If it what you like keep doing it.Maybe she just objects to what you dance? I don't know what kind of pain it is Alyse so I'm unsure but maybe your going about this the wrong way?Talk to your Bishop I'm sure he can help.Or talk to a leader maybe.The lord loves you so so much Alyse and he wants you to be happy.Remember men are that they might have joy.My advice would be read these two scripture verses they help a lot! Psalms 69:20 Doctrine and covenants 132:49 your not an awful person Alyse.your a wonderful person.Try and remember that we love you!And stop worrying about others for an hour let it all otu go crazy write sing whatever.Then after that...it's finished.Relax and sort out your problems there's a time for everything. Love ya sis!
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Post by [.alyse.] on Jan 27, 2008 17:10:24 GMT -5
im sorry you guys. im just not mself. im so angry tords the lord. and im so depressed about it. i finally reached my limit.
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Post by Kohaku on Jan 27, 2008 20:35:33 GMT -5
Alyse,
I LOVE YOU SIS!!!! , dont ever forget that
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