Post by Remove on Aug 18, 2011 23:28:19 GMT -5
So, I have just about 2 1/2 weeks left in Palmyra. It's sad I'll miss living in such an AMAZING place.
Today i spent a few hours with about 15 friends. It was a lot of fun to catch up and see people I don't normally.
I was walking side by side my closest friend Val. We've been friends since 6th grade. It will be SO odd leaving her behind. And, i'll be a freshman in college. College! She'll be a senior. Different stages of life. its crazy.
I'm having SO many mixed feelings lately about everything. Mostly I'm afraid i'll loose contact with amazing people. I'm afraid i'll get to Idaho and come back home and forget WHY i was friends with these people. I'm afraid i'll forget the support they've given me..... There are certain friends I don't mind leaving. It won't be as hard. But, theres a couple that i just absolutely adore! I'm also afraid that the friends I actually want to stay in close contact with won't. And..the ones i don't care much about will >>
I'll be missing SO much of my sisters life. I'm afraid when she needs me I won't be there.
I'm afraid i'll turn into some sort of no personality molly Mormon who makes Green Jello-0. I mean, i know that won't happen...it's a stupid cliche. But still.
I'm afraid I'll get lost in the big world of college students and I won't make friends like I've had. Or, i'll meet people who will be so class A judgmental mormony.
And, along with all this fear/worry is this 'ehh' feeling. A feeling of "i don't much about my relationship with this person, this person, this person ect." I mean, they've influenced my life..but why stay in contact?
God is so wonderful. I know we all realize that. But, I just can't get over it. There is some one out there that loves us SOO much he sent his son to die and suffer for OUR sins. And, He is there for us. Listening. And, he sends people into our lives for a reason. I'm in this really good churchy mood. I wish I could bottle this feeling and open it up when I need it most :/
I am super duper excited about going to the Rexburg temple soon. And, for my many college adventures to come.
And, I'm taking my Drivers test September 1st. Please pray for me! I really want to pass.
Have a lovely day. And remember- YOU are a child of GOD!!!
Lizzy.
Today i spent a few hours with about 15 friends. It was a lot of fun to catch up and see people I don't normally.
I was walking side by side my closest friend Val. We've been friends since 6th grade. It will be SO odd leaving her behind. And, i'll be a freshman in college. College! She'll be a senior. Different stages of life. its crazy.
I'm having SO many mixed feelings lately about everything. Mostly I'm afraid i'll loose contact with amazing people. I'm afraid i'll get to Idaho and come back home and forget WHY i was friends with these people. I'm afraid i'll forget the support they've given me..... There are certain friends I don't mind leaving. It won't be as hard. But, theres a couple that i just absolutely adore! I'm also afraid that the friends I actually want to stay in close contact with won't. And..the ones i don't care much about will >>
I'll be missing SO much of my sisters life. I'm afraid when she needs me I won't be there.
I'm afraid i'll turn into some sort of no personality molly Mormon who makes Green Jello-0. I mean, i know that won't happen...it's a stupid cliche. But still.
I'm afraid I'll get lost in the big world of college students and I won't make friends like I've had. Or, i'll meet people who will be so class A judgmental mormony.
And, along with all this fear/worry is this 'ehh' feeling. A feeling of "i don't much about my relationship with this person, this person, this person ect." I mean, they've influenced my life..but why stay in contact?
God is so wonderful. I know we all realize that. But, I just can't get over it. There is some one out there that loves us SOO much he sent his son to die and suffer for OUR sins. And, He is there for us. Listening. And, he sends people into our lives for a reason. I'm in this really good churchy mood. I wish I could bottle this feeling and open it up when I need it most :/
I am super duper excited about going to the Rexburg temple soon. And, for my many college adventures to come.
And, I'm taking my Drivers test September 1st. Please pray for me! I really want to pass.
Have a lovely day. And remember- YOU are a child of GOD!!!
Lizzy.