Post by Michael on Jul 9, 2011 17:34:19 GMT -5
I don't even know where to start, I'm just so confused.
This is my last efy to go as a youth and got to wait 4-5 years until I can go as a Co, cuz you got to be a RM for guys.
I got there was very nervous... went and sighed up, got my name tab, my efy bag, etc.. sighed up for the talent show... was going to my room and this guy came up his name is Spencer.... Spencer is such an amazing friend
wow, I can't even type this out without feeling all sad/mad etc.. I just want to hit a wall or something
Spencer and I hit it off, he would come talk to me everyday that I began to love him as a friend, his amazing and I miss him so much, we texted threw out the week...
I'm like srsly crying now...
efy meant so much to me this year, I got into the talent show and I was in the music program, I got so much hugs and high fives that I really thought I matter in people lifes and
for the last two days of efy Thursday and Friday I got 5-6 notes... everytime I just thought to myself "Why are people doing this?, what have I done in their life's"
Thursday night is talent show, musical program/fireside and testimony after fireside... talent show went well, I walked on stage with my 2 friends from my group that I met that week who helped me play/sing the song.... people were cheering, shouting my name etc... it was going well then my mic the mic was slipping off stand and I tired fixing it but someone came running to fix it, I messed up where I was playing, so in the end I screwed it up lol
musical program went well, I looked out and saw people crying.. when I went up to speak my part then I wasn't on ride page and was going threw the pages to find it, I got threw it but the dvd the music started to play, that sucked
after the musical program then it was the fireside... omgosh so touching, at the end when we were singing efy medley... I just couldn't help myself and burst up crying, Spencer who was in musical program with me and who was sitting next to me patted me on my back while we sang.. then awhile in prayer.... I just couldn't stop crying.... in fireside they were talking about how Jesus died for our sins, I took out my poem and it got pass around ( I handed it to Spencer then he read it and asked if he could pass it to guy sitting by him, then it got pass and got back to me) the guy sitting next to me asked if I wrote it and gave me a hand shake.
I was crying while Spencer and others were leaving me (cuz it was after prayer) and the slide show pics of Christ.. and people hugged me who were passing where I was standing.. then my group was called out to go to testimony meeting.
testimony meeting.. I had a promise with Nathan, if one of us goes up the other had to go up, I went up and told them how much I love my group, how much I love the guys.. cuz I told them on Tuesday that I got Aspager's Syndrome... they were accepting of me, and I went on with saying there is 15 priest at my ward and only 4-5 guys know I have AS etc, (I already been crying by now) so I talk some more... this girl after meeting came up and hugged me again, she hugged me 1-2 times the same day, I got hugs from other ppl in my group.. all the guys were hugging each other, the girls left, we let them go first
Marcus came over and put his arm around my shoulder, so we were walking together, we didn't say a word, we just hold on together and walk to our dorms, once at our dorms the guys stood there, talking how much we love each other etc..
stood for about a hour then we went and sat down, and talk for 40 more mins.. we pass the "lights out" time by 2hours lol
a note that Spencer gave me in the week
"Thank you for being here for me to talk to"
Friday when we were singing the efy medley as a group, girls were crying in my group so I reach in my pocket and got tissues, gave one to the girl next to me, when song was half way done, then when it was done I went around giving tissues to any of the girls who needed it.. they were like "I just want a group hug with Michael!" and 4-5 girls gave me a group hug, the guys were calling me a stud lol.. then I went around hugging people from group and friends who weren't in my group, like Spencer, the girl who hugged me in testimony (She lives in town from me, she's friends with a girl from my ward, they went to efy together lol, she said she will make sure to go to Kaitlin ward to visit me)
to bad she's 15 tho... , she said "Hey Michael, you should ask me to dance" and once a slow song started I did, she said she was going to write me a note but instead she said she'll just tell me, she said I have changed her life from me baring my testimony etc... she was about to cry etc, she went on with talking and I told her I want to be somebody like John bytheway, she said she'll get all my cds and books lol.. going to be fun meeting her again.
Random people were hugging me who have seen me from musical program, (A YW wrote me a note and gave it to me Thursday) she was in musical program w/ me, from musical program, talent show and even testimony meeting, it was soo wonderful and touching, this guy walked up to me and said "Michael, this is for you"
it says "Thank you Michael!, you are an inspiration to me! I love you-
Josh Morris" those are just the short ones, a girl gave me a note on Friday night, after we sang the song etc.. I love efy and I will miss it dearly, I wish I could go next year.
This is my last efy to go as a youth and got to wait 4-5 years until I can go as a Co, cuz you got to be a RM for guys.
I got there was very nervous... went and sighed up, got my name tab, my efy bag, etc.. sighed up for the talent show... was going to my room and this guy came up his name is Spencer.... Spencer is such an amazing friend
wow, I can't even type this out without feeling all sad/mad etc.. I just want to hit a wall or something
Spencer and I hit it off, he would come talk to me everyday that I began to love him as a friend, his amazing and I miss him so much, we texted threw out the week...
I'm like srsly crying now...
efy meant so much to me this year, I got into the talent show and I was in the music program, I got so much hugs and high fives that I really thought I matter in people lifes and
for the last two days of efy Thursday and Friday I got 5-6 notes... everytime I just thought to myself "Why are people doing this?, what have I done in their life's"
Thursday night is talent show, musical program/fireside and testimony after fireside... talent show went well, I walked on stage with my 2 friends from my group that I met that week who helped me play/sing the song.... people were cheering, shouting my name etc... it was going well then my mic the mic was slipping off stand and I tired fixing it but someone came running to fix it, I messed up where I was playing, so in the end I screwed it up lol
musical program went well, I looked out and saw people crying.. when I went up to speak my part then I wasn't on ride page and was going threw the pages to find it, I got threw it but the dvd the music started to play, that sucked
after the musical program then it was the fireside... omgosh so touching, at the end when we were singing efy medley... I just couldn't help myself and burst up crying, Spencer who was in musical program with me and who was sitting next to me patted me on my back while we sang.. then awhile in prayer.... I just couldn't stop crying.... in fireside they were talking about how Jesus died for our sins, I took out my poem and it got pass around ( I handed it to Spencer then he read it and asked if he could pass it to guy sitting by him, then it got pass and got back to me) the guy sitting next to me asked if I wrote it and gave me a hand shake.
I was crying while Spencer and others were leaving me (cuz it was after prayer) and the slide show pics of Christ.. and people hugged me who were passing where I was standing.. then my group was called out to go to testimony meeting.
testimony meeting.. I had a promise with Nathan, if one of us goes up the other had to go up, I went up and told them how much I love my group, how much I love the guys.. cuz I told them on Tuesday that I got Aspager's Syndrome... they were accepting of me, and I went on with saying there is 15 priest at my ward and only 4-5 guys know I have AS etc, (I already been crying by now) so I talk some more... this girl after meeting came up and hugged me again, she hugged me 1-2 times the same day, I got hugs from other ppl in my group.. all the guys were hugging each other, the girls left, we let them go first
Marcus came over and put his arm around my shoulder, so we were walking together, we didn't say a word, we just hold on together and walk to our dorms, once at our dorms the guys stood there, talking how much we love each other etc..
stood for about a hour then we went and sat down, and talk for 40 more mins.. we pass the "lights out" time by 2hours lol
a note that Spencer gave me in the week
"Thank you for being here for me to talk to"
Friday when we were singing the efy medley as a group, girls were crying in my group so I reach in my pocket and got tissues, gave one to the girl next to me, when song was half way done, then when it was done I went around giving tissues to any of the girls who needed it.. they were like "I just want a group hug with Michael!" and 4-5 girls gave me a group hug, the guys were calling me a stud lol.. then I went around hugging people from group and friends who weren't in my group, like Spencer, the girl who hugged me in testimony (She lives in town from me, she's friends with a girl from my ward, they went to efy together lol, she said she will make sure to go to Kaitlin ward to visit me)
to bad she's 15 tho... , she said "Hey Michael, you should ask me to dance" and once a slow song started I did, she said she was going to write me a note but instead she said she'll just tell me, she said I have changed her life from me baring my testimony etc... she was about to cry etc, she went on with talking and I told her I want to be somebody like John bytheway, she said she'll get all my cds and books lol.. going to be fun meeting her again.
Random people were hugging me who have seen me from musical program, (A YW wrote me a note and gave it to me Thursday) she was in musical program w/ me, from musical program, talent show and even testimony meeting, it was soo wonderful and touching, this guy walked up to me and said "Michael, this is for you"
it says "Thank you Michael!, you are an inspiration to me! I love you-
Josh Morris" those are just the short ones, a girl gave me a note on Friday night, after we sang the song etc.. I love efy and I will miss it dearly, I wish I could go next year.